This is a blog written by a fellow missionary momma. When I first read it, it really resonated with what I’ve felt all along about my awkwardness in ministry. I have never felt like I was your typical pastor’s wife and sometimes that’s bothered me. So here’s encouragement from another woman who doesn’t seem to fit the mold either.
In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Then He formed man in his image; male and female He created them.
In the middle, God birthed His New Testament church. Then He commissioned them to go into all the world; anointed with His Spirit He sent them.
Near the end, God hastened his task. Then He formed a cookie-cutter shaped missionary; identical He produced them, for the harvest was great and the workers were few.
And they rarely lived happily ever after.
(written by Lax N. Site for the “Myths, Lies, and Twisted Truths” anthology.)
You’ve never read that? Oh, but many of us have believed it- or live surrounded by those who do.
It began with the “I do” to a minister on my wedding day. I felt I had to be that cookie-cutter pastor’s wife. I did love people, but I couldn’t sing, wasn’t a social butterfly, and the only songs I knew on the piano were 70’s hits like “Yes, We Have No Bananas.”
Was I the wrong cookie for that post?
In time came the call to missions. With itineration came invitations to be the engaging speaker for women’s event in There-ville. “Come, share your vision with passion!” Except that I hated public speaking and was still recovering from the shock of the call.
Was I the wrong cookie for that plate?
On the field, most nationals have received us warmly with invitations to preach. In my case, again to women in conferences or other large gatherings. Often I sensed their disappointment that I am not the Patsy Clairmont or Beth Moore they expected… or hoped for.
Am I the wrong cookie for this place?
I used to think so, but not anymore. Sweeping the crumbs aside, a dormant truth in my heart awoke to active belief: I am uniquely created by my Maker! My talents and abilities are to be used for His glory, for the calling of His choosing.
As a missionary, I can serve Him with what He’s given me, though others try rolling me, cutting me out and baking me into what they think I should be. if I like to write, paint, bake or to raise my kids well and be the best help-meet for my husband, I can do any of those as faithful ministry, creatively using my desires, abilities and talents for God’s glory.
Have you ever read about Bezalel in Exodus 31:3-4? God uniquely used him to help build the Tabernacle: “I have filled him with the Spirit, with skill… to make artistic designs.” Or you may recall the Levites in 1 Chronicles 23-26 who each had a specific work to do, “…they were to serve the Lord… in the way prescribed for them… and so they carried our their responsibilities.” And let’s not forget Tabitha in Acts 9 who served the Lord by sewing for widows.
This is cookie-cutter freedom!
You know both your calling and your talents. May God continually roll you, shape you, and make you into what He wills. His house will fill with a wonderful aroma and your life will be a trail of delicious crumbs for others to taste and see how good He is.
*Originally posted on “In Real Life with Jamie Jo” on Women of the Harvest. and again on the LAC Writers’ Guild called Tortilla Press. Finally, if you want to read more of Ilona’s blogs,visit her own Inkyspot.