About a month ago I heard a sermon about the woman at the well (John 4) and I can’t stop thinking about her. Jesus takes time to talk to a woman who was really messing up her life, and I identified with her… not in the exact same way, I mean, I haven’t had a string of husbands and adulterous relationships. Jesus met her at the well during the heat of noon when thirst was a natural conversation starter. He pointed out the fact that her life was like a dry, empty well. She had a deep, emptiness in her that she was trying to fill with relationships. That’s what caught my attention.
One night while sitting on my balcony watching the city lights, the Lord started to speak to me about that gaping emptiness inside of me too. Sometimes I feel loneliness as a tangible force. Like the woman at the well, I throw things into the yawning abyss to try to satisfy the ache. I circle around Facebook searching for “human” connection. I browse the internet reading blogs and news articles just killing time until I can sleep because it’s better than sitting here listening to the beating of my own heart. Distractions. For some people the distractions take the form of music, work, sports, TV, video games, going out night after night, or worse vices like addictions. We all have an ache we can’t fill. We all should be able to identify with the woman at the well.
As I pondered what the Lord was showing me, I felt him say, “Let me fill you.” He said that to the woman too. “Let me fill you with Living Water so that you will never again thirst spiritually.” I hesitated. He asked me, “What are you afraid of?”
“Lord, I’m afraid that you won’t be enough.” I have not found anything yet that is enough. So I felt like if I give up my stop-gap measures, the dam will break and nothingness will come rushing in like a vacuum- sucking me down like a black hole. I looked up at the stars. Somehow by pondering the bigness of the Universe and the smallness of me, everything was put in perspective. I am small. My emptiness, though it feels big to me, is nothing to God. I am guilty of constructing a very small view of God.
Things in the Universe are so far away, so large yet so spread out through the vastness of space, that we use something called a Light Year to talk about distances. A Light Year is how far light can travel in one Earth year. The magic number is 5.88 trillion miles per year- that is a Light Year. Scientists have calculated that the edge of the “known” Universe is 98 billion Light Years away from Earth. So if you could travel at the speed of Light for 98 billion years, then you would come to the edge of the what we think we “know” of the Universe… and it most certainly expands farther than that. Feeling small yet?
Think about this, the Bible says that God holds the whole Universe in his hand- that he measures the sky with the palm of his hand. So if you could travel 5.88 trillion miles per year for 98 billion years… you might reach the edge of God’s hand. “Do you still think I’m not enough?” God asked me. I lay down my arguments in humble awe of His Greatness. Like Job, I am speechless in response to His Majesty.
If you want more awe inspiring thoughts about our Universe, watch this YouTube video of Christian speaker Louie Giglio.