I don’t think any of us really understand what we are asking for when we say we want more of God in our lives.
Does that mean you want more miracles? Then you will find your back against the wall more often. You will be desperate for help more frequently. You will face your own inadequacies over and over again. You will face brick walls and impossible, impassable, unsolvable problems. You will be drained of your resources over and over again until you have absolutely nothing to brag about in your own strength. Is that what you meant?
Does it mean that you want God to speak to you more? Then you will be forced to listen more intently. And once you hear, you will be compelled to obey like never before. So really, how MUCH more do you want to hear? Is once a day enough? Or once an hour, a month, a year? What do you really want? The Children of Israel saw the holy fire and cloud descending on Mount Sinai as it shook with divine power. They heard the thundering voice of God and pleaded with Moses to ask God to stop speaking to them because they couldn’t handle it. It was terrifying. So what if God DID speak to you in an audible voice, would you be able to handle it?
Does it mean you want God to take control of your life? Do you mean take control of every day decisions or just something vague like your destiny? If you give up control, well… then you give up control. Is that what you really want or do you expect to keep little corners of your life well within your grasp? What if God does something with your life that you don’t like. Will you want to take back the keys and drive yourself again? What if God drives your life into an unhappy place. Will you determine that you must be “out of God’s will” because you are uncomfortable and no longer FEEL what you expected to feel?
Does it mean that you expect prosperity and happiness? Because if you read about the prophets of the Old Testament who clearly had a direct line to God’s voice, they were some of the most miserable people of their day. No one ASKED to become a prophet. Not many people even LIKED the prophets. Think about Jeremiah, the weeping prophet who was stuck in the mud in the bottom of an old well when his beloved Jerusalem was sacked. Have you read about crazy Ezekiel who was made into a human object lesson when God told him to lay on his left side for 390 days and on his right side for 40 days, and to cook his food over human excrement in order to demonstrate the siege of Jerusalem? I’m sure he wasn’t happy about that. Then there’s Elijah, the manic-depressive enemy of an evil King and Queen who was fed by ravens. Or perhaps consider John the Baptist, clothed in scratchy hair shirts dipping his locusts in wild honey. Is that what you had in mind when you asked for more of God in your life? Yet these men had more of God than anyone I know now days.
More of God means less and less of you. Less of your dreams being fulfilled. Less of your money being at your own personal disposal. Less of your decisions revolving around your own happiness. More of God is a fearful thing to ask. Yet here we are, asking and not knowing what to expect. Perhaps God is being merciful in not granting our undefined requests, knowing that we, like those stiff necked Children of Israel, wouldn’t be able to handle the Truth. Who is brave enough to ask for more of God?