I walked to the refrigerator to begin making dinner. My hand felt heavy and weak as I gripped the handle of the fridge. I didn’t open the door. I just laid my forehead against the back of my hand still gripping the handle and sighed. This depression was so heavy that I physically felt tired and drained. I whispered a silent prayer, “Lord, call off the attack. I can’t fight this anymore. I’m too weak and tired.” A few tears fell from my eyes and splashed on the tile at my feet. I know He heard my prayer.
From that moment on, I felt a turning of the tide. I admitted my weakness and asked for help- two things I don’t do very often. Though I don’t like it, I have begun to acknowledge and respect my own limitations because I no longer feel the imagined condemnation beating me over the head for not being stronger. That was not from God. That was the attack of the Enemy- and I finally recognized it. When I asked for help, God rang the bell and called the match “over”. HE had won on my behalf.
If you are fighting discouragement, read these words from Brother David Wilkerson and relax. You can let God do the fighting for you. You’re not alone.
When you are under attack from the enemy’s spirit of discouragement, you will
not feel like praying. But you still must go to the secret place and be in
Jesus’ presence. Do not worry about trying to pray your way out of despair.
This is the time for God’s Spirit to go to work in you to lift you out of the
pit.When you go to the Lord, be honest with Him about how weak and helpless you
feel. Let Him know, “Jesus, I’m dry. I have no strength left. If I’m ever going
to get out of this depression, You are going to have to make it happen.”In such low times, the Lord is very patient with us. He does not expect us to
exert some intense, fervent effort in prayer. He knows our condition, and He
sympathizes with us. Just sit in His presence and trust His Spirit to do in you
what He was sent to do. It doesn’t matter how cast down you are, He will never
forsake you!We have the notion that every time we fail the Lord, the Holy Spirit flits away
like a bird because He is grieved. But how could God’s Spirit abandon me when I
need Him most? If He leaves me whenever I fail and fall deep into
discouragement, how can He be my Comforter?Jesus promised us, “I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another
Comforter, that he may abide with you forever . . . I will not leave you
comfortless: I will come to you” (John 14:16, 18).When the devil’s heavy spirit of discouragement settles over your life, you may
be so distraught you cannot even whisper a prayer. But even so, you can talk to
Jesus in your spirit. Just tell Him softly, “Lord, help me. This attack is too
much for me. I can’t do anything but sit here in faith. I am trusting your
Spirit to drive it out of me.”
Monkeys in My Bag 