Today (Thursday) was the last day of school for my kids and my 5th graders too. Teachers still have to go for another day to close up things and enter grades into the computers. But we are done! I just didn’t expect to feel sad. I expected to feel giddy and happy, but instead I have said good-bye to some students who are going onto another country and some teacher-friends that I have come to love this year. As I drove home alone in the rain, I actually cried a little. No joke, I cry about 3 times a year, so this really surprised me.
Aside from knowing that I’m going to miss these smiling faces, I think it was the emotion of completion that got me chocked up. This was a really hard year for me… but I succeeded. I did it! With God’s strength and constant help, I made it through something really tough. The pressure of being “strong” has held me together for so long that once the need to be strong was no longer there, I collapsed under the weight of it. I didn’t even realize that I had been carrying that burden.
Now it’s going to sound shallow when I tell you that I am coming home with some really nice and thoughtful teacher-gifts. (I have some parents with good taste represented in my class!) I had a special needs girl in my Bible class, and she gave me a flower and several hugs. I love it! And I have a collection of precious cards from my kids. Here’s a few of my favorite lines from those cards:
~ I will miss you as long as I remember 5th grade memories.
~You have been my very favorite teacher this year so far. (several kids have come mid-year)
~I enjoyed doing all the art projects and Bible class because you made me understand things from the Bible that I did not understand. P.S. Do not tell anybody that you are my favorite teacher. (Just in case some other teachers are reading this… you didn’t see anything here.)
~I am thankful for all the hard work you’ve done this year. I know it can be hard to not get angry at us. (haha! I think I only lost my temper twice the whole year.)
~Thanks for keeping an eye on me this year.
And here’s the best one from one of my 9th graders. Earlier in the year I surprised her by anonymously putting a couple of big bags of chocolate chips in her locker after she teared up in class telling me how she missed baking treats for her family back home. Then she returned the surprise a few days later when I found a batch of cookies on my desk. She said this poem wasn’t original, but I still really like this. I’m going to keep this card, for sure!
“Once in a while you meet someone, and your thoughts are rearranged, ’cause their wise words affected you, and you realize you’ve been changed. They give the special gift of truth, and teach you it’s okay to wonder; so you search ’till you find what you’re looking for, and your doubts are torn asunder. God placed them in your life for sure, and He used them as a key, so I’ll take just a minute to thank you, because you were that person for me!”
That’s a keeper. Pretty words nicely said, I like to have them in my head.