Ever since I had cancer, I have had to accept that I have a new “normal” level of energy. I used to be able to work hard for very long periods of time, and I was proud of my strength. Now I wake up every day at 5am, and the first words in my mind are a prayer asking God for the strength to make it though today.
I just don’t have the stamina that I used to have. I fight against my own inclinations to be angry about that. I quit asking WHY long ago. It’s pointless to ask that. No one ever gets the answer they want. It makes me sad to think that the older I get I can expect my strength to continue to wane. That’s natural.
So today I’m going to share a few clips from the devotional book that I’m reading in the mornings for my “quicky devos”. I do a longer Bible reading at night when I have quiet time to myself. In the mornings I am reading Jesus Calling by Sarah Young. Here are a few sound-bites that have ministered to me:
Bring to Me your weakness, and receive My Peace. Accept yourself and your circumstances just as they are, remembering that I am sovereign over everything. Do not wear yourself out with analyzing and planning. Instead, let thankfulness and trust be your guides through this day; they will keep you close to Me…
Come to Me for rest and refreshment. The journey had been too much for you, and you are bone-weary. Do not be ashamed of your exhaustion. Instead, see it as an opportunity for Me to take charge of your life. Remember that I can fit everything into a pattern for good, including the things you wish were different. Start with where you are at this point in time and space, accepting that this is where I intend you to be. You will get through today one step, one moment at a time…
Thank Me for the conditions that are requiring you to be still. Do not spoil these quiet hours by wishing them away, waiting impatiently to be active again. Some of the greatest works in My kingdom have been done from sick beds and prison cells. Instead of resenting the limitations of a weakened body, search for My way in the midst of these very circumstances. Limitations can be liberating when your strongest desire is living close to Me… My strength and power show themselves most effective in weakness.
Thank you Jesus for being in control of every circumstance of my life. Even though it’s hard for me to do this because I’m still learning how, I thank you for my weakness. I don’t understand it, but I trust you. This is what you’ve given me, and I thank you. Glorify yourself in my weakness.