I have not blogged for a couple of weeks now. I’m just breathing in and out every day, doing my job, taking care of responsibilities. I’ve been focusing on Soul Care issues with any spare strength I find. Boundaries- I’m pushing back those boundary lines that have crept too close to the center, giving myself space to breathe. One of those boundaries is pulling away from social media for who knows how long- until I feel more like myself and less like a conglomeration of acquaintances who share a page in cyberspace. I had already been toying with the idea of not blogging so much because it was starting to feel like homework. I need to go back to the place where writing brought me joy and for me, that means less structure and more spontaneity.
Another boundary I’ve decided to resurrect is to read more real books. Reading articles and news headlines on line has not been renewing my mind enough to be refreshing. I have been spending my weekends curled up in a comfy chair with a good book, ignoring the world as much as I can. I still have to do ministry things on the weekends and take my kids to birthday parties and go to church, but I’ve decided not to feel guilty about guarding my weekends and doing what I enjoy for once.
And finally, I have been making space in my schedule to have those coffee dates with friends that I have neglected the last few months. Even though I don’t have much to give them, just being with them, hearing their life updates, and enjoying their friendship has brought me joy. I need to do that more often. A friend of mine came into town as she traveled from Thailand to Dallas to Costa Rica and home to Argentina. I dropped everything and told my husband, “Find your own dinner and take care of the kids. Don’t call my cell phone asking when I’m going to come home. I’m going to be with my friend for as long as I possibly can.” And it was a magical 5 hours of talking and laughing long after the coffee and dessert was gone. (Waiters here never bring the bill until you ask for it, they just expect that you’ll sit as long as you want after you’ve eaten. It’s all about relationships in Latin America.) I needed that time with her.
So here I am, just living each day one by one. I wake up every morning and ask the Lord for the strength to get through today, for the wisdom that I will need to do my job, for the Lord to bless the work of my hands. Having boundaries and knowing what my soul needs to be energized are part of my Soul Care plan. You’ll see me around the blogger-sphere more sporadically for a while. Thank you for all your loyal readership over the last 2 years. Let’s bump into each other again soon.
P.S. I do have a blog going up tomorrow too. So come back then.